Was this destined to be?
The first thought, as I look deeper at the seemingly deliberate choices.
Cognizance of the futility of existence has left a strong impression within me. The steep downfall of the survival instinct has put me in a tricky place, forcing me to walk a precarious path. A mind that finds solace in a well-planned framework, thoughtful consideration, and evaluated value proposition has suddenly dissipated.
But I did not choose this, or did I?
As Sri Aurobindo, a renowned Indian philosopher, remarked
The only free will in the world is the one divine Will of which Nature is the executrix; for she is the master and creator of all other wills.
Behind the visible events of the world, there is always a mass of invisible cosmic forces at work that are unknown to the outward minds of men. We are blind to their action because our ego-sense creates in us the illusion of a coherent personality.
Answers my dilemma.
The foundation of Gestalt Psychology relies on perception. It argues that 'The whole is something else than the sum of its parts,' suggesting that simply adding up individual elements is meaningless. Purposeful information is only revealed by considering the bigger picture.
This observation is reminiscent of a similar phrase attributed to the great philosopher Aristotle.
The point is, upon recollecting the past few 'did-not-go-well' incidents, it seems that impulsivity had gotten the best of me, resulting in blunders. However, looking at the bigger picture of the past year, there appears to be a very strong connection among these seemingly separate events.
Propelled to follow the same path repeatedly, each separate event aided in peeling off one more layer of ignorance. Despite efforts to swim in the other direction, the opposing current had always been stronger.
In the illusion of free will, fate has been working silently. Regardless of how tormenting the current downfall is or how many more tests remain, one thing is clear: the web of cosmic force is diligently striving to maintain equilibrium. Efforts never go in vain, energy never remains idle. Patience is all that's needed.
Fated or not, for if I have chosen to walk with surrender, it eventually doesn’t matter.
It's 11:11 as I continue writing this, and it has dawned upon me how every downfall has made me more resilient, self-reliant, and a little more humble. The learning, in reality, is much bigger and more profound than these written words suggest.
This is your best one yet! Love the intersection of an Indian philosopher, modern psychology (Gesalt) etc ++ the graphics. Looking forward to more such stuff ✨❤️